POST 2 || NOV. 12

CHANGING THE PARADIGM REQUIRES AN ADJUSTMENT IN WHAT YOU'VE INITIALLY BEEN PROGRAMMED TO DO.

Anxiety. That's the thing that has been holding back the dreaded self-analysis of bad habits. I know that those terrible habits are there, but if I focus on them, they seem TOO BIG to tackle. My anxious brain works to refrain from overthinking the significant things and instead breaks down all of the small stuff that doesn't matter, sucking up all of my energy.

​I have been programmed. I watched a youtube video by the awesome Bob Proctor who spoke about shifting paradigms to align yourself with what you are working to manifest into your life. He talks about the programming of a child and how they are wired with most of their subconscious knowledge by the time they're five years old. When I think about my main struggles, especially in my professional life, those being organization, communication, and limited financial understanding, I realize that my parents have some of those issues too. Possibly, their parents had the same. As I live out my successful entrepreneurship journey, these little bad habits that have been ingrained in me without my realizing limit my efforts and therefore hinder my ability to reach my full potential.
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After apologizing to a client/friend AGAIN for not being as communicative as I should be during a project, I realized that the affirmative signs I've received recently letting me know that whatever I wanted was coming leaned on whether or not I made the conscious effort to change my bad habits. On November 4th, I did my 2nd tarot card reading on myself. I was warned about my communication regardless of the success the universe promised. I spent time considering what big event would come up that would prompt me to "fix a problem" with a proper communication, but more than likely the universe was throwing my habits in my face. ​I didn't realize that though until now.

THE INTIAL STEP IN SHIFTING IS KNOWING WHERE THE SHIFT IS.

I need to sit down and write. Write down everything, flaws and all. I need to take the time to think about what works for me and what doesn't. I need to track my finances to the penny so I can make room for more investments. I need to make new rules, and count them like Dua. That's the only way I'll control my anxiety attacks which pushes me to avoid the world crumbling around me and says " just keep pushing forward" into what would ultimately become a fruitless abyss. I am shifting the paradigm, and NOTHING can be in my way.
POST 1 || NOV. 11
It only makes sense that I post on November eleventh (11/11), especially to talk about becoming your tru self regardless of what goes on around you. I recently started identifying as a Goth... I mean with the actual word "Goth".  But trust me, my soul has pretty much always been Black. My imagination has always been dark, and the desire to wear all Black clothing and NO other color has remained for many years. It was because of my upbringing and the fact that I was "African-American" that I didn't feel comfortable with going full fledged gothic and proudly living in that life. It was so uncomfortable over the years, trying to find another category to fit into when really I was just all black, piercings, tattoos, monsters, halloween, and hard rock. So now at 25, I have determined that I am a Goth (a classy, sophisticated one), and my entire wardrobe and home will be Black. 
oct. 24
fresh thoughts || oct. 24
Study passion :: redefining what it means to live life to the fullest is to submerge yourself in your meaning. We consider YOLO to be do as many crazy things as possible in our earth lives, but perhaps it’s more about manifesting our highest potential through living in a true environment, looking true, behaving like who we want to be, and acquiring spiritual knowledge.
oct. 21
When we were kids we were told “you can do anything you put your mind to”. That’s real because the power of energies and the circle of gratitude allows you to have that much command over your life.
oct. 21